Lost...

Have I gone insane? Or is it just a delusion?
What would I keep going like this?
There isn't a light at the end of the tunnel,
just more darkness 'cause it looks more like a maze
than a straight path to my destiny...

Loneliness never tasted better, its sour and grim taste
had captivated me and made me keep asking for more
I embrace this solitude in my life and I finally got it.

You can never reach happiness.
Pain is the only thing you might expect in life.
I think I finally lost my way, funny.
Who would have think about that?
I only remember one person that wished me that.
Hope you're happy 'cuz your wish might became truth.

Live fast, die young... I like that motto.

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Two-faced

Everything it wants, everything it gets
that's the saying that rules its life
stepping into everything and everybody
to only fulfill its goal.

It stands in front of you sporting a big smile,
a smile capable of light any dark surrounding
a smile that can enchant you at the very first sight
but behind this lovable feature, hides an evil grin as dark as its heart.

There's no mercy in its vocabulary
not because it doesn't know its meaning
but because it's unable to forgive and forget.

Tearing up the hearts of the poor souls that fell into their schemes
is the best that the Two-Faced does, getting from them all that it needs
and later throwing them away as if they were the scum of the Earth.

There's no resentment in these lines
that are written only in fiction,
but the existence of the Two-Faced
can be noticed every certain time,
in the hearts of those who have forgotten
that in life, everything spins arounds
and the evil that men do, the evil they will get.

Trust no one, don't give away your feelings
or the Two-Faced will appear in front of you at the very first second
and squeeze you until the very last drop of soul from you.

Beware of it, 'cause life's confusing when you grow up
but more fucked up when you fall in love of the wrong one.

There's always a light at the end of a tunnel,
either a light of disgrace or a light of hope,
according the path you choose
try not to regret when you reach finally reach it.

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You may dream...

Life's confusing when you grow up,
but when you found that strength that keep you going
you open wide your eyes and
start seeing things with a different perspective.

At last, I accomplished on forgetting my past
I never want to make the same mistake again
and I deserve to be happy the way it is supposed to be.

No more whinning and no more crying for that someone
that only gave me tears instead of laughs
and pain instead of happiness.

I want to embrace life once for all
and meet that special someone that everybody
talks me about but I haven't met yet.

If you're reading this, special someone
let me tell you that I'm available and waiting for you
at any time, so just meet me wherever you want it.
You know where am I.

I promise you thath I'll be there waiting
days and nights in the same spot,
longing to finally meet you and see you smile,
that smile that will soothe the pain of being me.

This is my final statement, this is my breakpoint
I've realized that I given too much to some people
that really didn't deserve it at all.

I put all my effort on making these people happy
and I haven't received anything from them,
so that's why I'm taking this decision to grow apart from them
and start focusing on me, on us.

It will be hard to do it but I finally found
what I was looking for to accomplish this difficult task...
HOPE.

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Am I ready to let you go?

I'm not quite sure about that. There's this hidden feeling I kept for myself that keep reminding me what IS what I like about you, what makes me think about you, what makes me sigh about you, what makes my heart beat faster than the speed of sound when I imagine the shape of your face...

I don't know how to describe it, but it's kind of a warmness that grows inside my chest and travels through every vein of my body. I can't describe it, I just can only feel it. The image of you is printed inside my skull, the light of your smile is recorded in my eyes and the memories I grew with you are my only lifesaver on the shipwreck of my loneliness.

At your side I lived a lot of situations, some good and some bad; but I treasure all of them. I can't go forward without asking myself how are you feeling today and that's the only reason for me to stand where am I. I'm afraid of start walking without knowing if you're going to catch me up or if I going to meet you somewhere during my journey.

I'm used to be near you, I got used to your smile and your scent. I enjoy making you laugh like nobody else can and also, I'm delighted when you stares at me with those hazel eyes, those beautiful hazel eyes that once I watched falling asleep and waking up in the same night.

Now, we're kind of standing on unstable ground. I don't want to let you go like this, I don't want you to hate me after all we passed through just to be called friends. I made a huge mistake, but this mistake would guaranteed me a new and fresh beginning without you or would guaranteed me to keep on going without you. This is a big decission for me to take and I expect to make the right judgement about my so messed up life. I don't want to quit on you, I don't want to be far from you, I just want to be with you...

Just imagine, how things would be if this relationship fall apart? I hope you can read this and help me to find a solution where everybody gets what everybody wants. I apologize if my actions were obscure and mean at the time, but I hope you realized how hurt am I and how I can't mantain this to keep on moving. Really, I was lost 'til the day I found you and I don't want to get lost again.

Am I ready to say "Good Bye" to you?
What a tough decission...

P.D. Si quieres leerlo en español, copia el contenido de la entrada
y pégalo aquí. Sólo que la traducción no es del todo coherente ni exacta.

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You and Me

I wake up every morning, touching the other side of my bed and suddenly realizing that for one more night, there's nobody there. I look at the mirror every morning after waking up, stearing at my reflection for a long time, thinking, talking to myself, I just can't stop doing this.

My head is stufffed with these thoughts and mementos of a person who always appears in my dreams. I prepare myself for the day: catching the bus, going to classes, faking a smile to others, tell jokes, sitting and listening all kind of nonsense from some people, drinking something (better if its alcohol), looking at the sky trying to remember who's that person inside of me, who's that one who wants to come into my bittersweet life...

I return home and I see my family, but for an strange reason, I don't feel like home. That's weird, isn't it? Well, I'll discover the why later or someday maybe. That moment of my routine is the most painful because for an strange reason, I can't stop thinking about that woman who is always in my thoughts, that woman who appears in front of me with every beat of my heart, that woman who smiles to me when the moon appears in the middle of the dark sky at the middle of the night, that woman whose voice penetrates beneath my skin, that woman who's looking for a place where to stay and help me overcome every issue of my deadly kind of life.

I can't help falling in love of her. It's something that also I can't explain with words... just feel it because, I've realized that she became an essencial part of me and I found my life empty if she isn't on it. Everything reminds me of her beauty, I have her sweet whispers engraved in my heart. I haven't felt like this ever in my life, she became my everything and my everywhere.

I thank to the moon for putting me in her life, I want to protect her from everything, take her to the limits of the universe and kiss her at every second I spent at her side. This is my will : I compromise to be her guard from the depths of the darkness and be her knight from the abyss of silence. I'll be right at her side everytime, waiting quietly and hoping that one day she'll come close to me, and suddenly, lay her head on my shoulder, hug her, and give her a nice smile... a smile from the bottom of my heart.

I'm not going to tell her "I love you" because that will sound like a common thing. I didn't find a better way to express it like the one I'm doing and writing right now. Everything is going to be fine, cutie, you and me will overcome everything that may appear in our way. We can do everything if we are together.

Alone, each one of us light brightly...
Together, We light like a full moon... on a dark day.

Will you be my valentine?

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